I have often written out of the depths of my heart' I have often thought it was the best way to be Now I reconsider, maybe I should write from the bottom of my heart but not live that way People have often said I am too sensitive maybe thats true I learn daily that in a world were values become relative And truth seems a shifting ground that I stand as if alone I do not claim perfection I only claim that maybe character wise I try too hard to be perfect Maybe I take life too serious and insults personal Maybe I expect too much and drive myself too hard I need to know is it wrong to strive to be good? Or should I be proud of my falls and misdeeds? And expect the same from others Is it too much to be too plain and fear to do evil I hardly hear the word sin anymore This is real, am I the only sinner? Is sin no longer here? Then why the hurt of many by many, The death of love and the uprise of vanity, terror and sorrow Why are there many who lurk in the dark causing fear and being afraid Why are children missing and guns tooting Let us call it what it is So much sin And yet so much grace, abounds For the aching, the victims, the lost There is still a name for wrong doing it is SIN There is yet a bigger name for relief It is Salvation, both start with S I preach too much, so they flea, but I preach to myself Much more than to anyother I need the grace, for pain, sin, hardship and strength I need the grace and I am called grace. I am renewed by grace and I thank God for grace. Thank you Lord

So beautiful, yet so confusing

This may seem to many like the wondering of someone inept if nothing, these blogs show i am searching for what you may ask, to whom you may ask i do not have the answers and so i search on the sound of music song comes back to me after so many years of listening "climb every mountain, ford every stream, follow every rainbow till you find your dream" my question is what is my dream, what is my mission? What if i miss the very essence for which i was made. It took Moses 40 years, or was it 80 years before he achieved his May be just maybe life is still long May be just may be i am here to ask the questions you all are afraid to ask Maybe just maybe you all know what to do may be just maybe i am the only wonderer and wanderer may be just maybe i am....... Life is so beautiful, but oh so confusing MAYBE, Just maybe....

A life of Challenges

A life worth living is full of challenges A challenge worth taking is fraught with tension Tension prolonged is stress unlimited A life of stress can be good or bad A bad life is chronic stress and more A good life is so much more and a little stress What are we here for and are we on course? Why were we made or did we evolve? I will not talk about evolving because I was born human All my ancestors are human too This is my belief and this is my truth As I was saying, this life is full of challenges However I will overcome because I live in the shadow of HIS wings I am in the great I AM! So the challenges just makes my relationship with him all the more exciting This is to the chagrin of them that think they cause them A life of challenges is a life worth living A life without "A Cause" is an empty tomb waiting to be filled Bring on the stress, the strife, the challenge I am in the great I AM, I have no fears Only laughter, only victory, only success

My mortality,

Born Laughing

I have often wondered why I am always smiling
Laughing even when it may seem to some ailing
In my pain I see cause to smile
In my foolishness I reason to laugh sly
Then it hit me and has persisted
I was born laughing as I resisted
The difficult passage of the birth canal
The harshness of the cold wind of life banal
I laughed and they thought I cried
They were glad as they furiously pried
Little and seeming ill prepared for life
Still I guffawed my way as sure as a knife
God made me slight to defy the stout
He gave me reason and grace to go about
And so even now aparently poorly adapting to my circumstances
I grimace and remember to laugh as I take stance
I still smile, laugh, guffaw, whatever
Just as I survived my birth however
I will survive this strife that I face daily
I will die laughing and my small world will rally
Round me laughing with me, and saying she laughed all through life
And even in death she still laughs on as friend, sister, mother, wife

Another reason to smile

To those who ask me why do you always smile
I say this, what is there to cry about?
You stabbed my back to make me die
You tried to pull me down so you can stand up
MY SMILE is in defiance, to show that you failed
I am glad that I also learnt the truth
In pulling another down you bend down too and may fall
In stabbing another you lose strength too and may hurt
In causing pain you fail again and again
Your wishes can only come true when you are true
To yourself, to your kin and to your God
I have another reason to smile
I have been stabbed yet I healed again and again
I have been pulled down yet I stand tall
I live to fight another day
I smile again because there's no reason to cry

A Prayer of Plea

Lord I have come again with my never ending plea for Direction
Lord I have come again, holding the helm of your garment
Lord I have come again, asking another favor, seeking respite
Lord I have come again knowing you will never tire of me
I chose to come to this place, I pleaded to seek these shores
You gave me my heart's desire, I knew not the enormity of my quest
This place is a wilderness, this place is a dungeon, cold and damp
I am all alone in this festering habitat, I am dismayed
I know that in all things I should see your hand, your face, your touch
Right now Lord I do not lie, I feel alone, afraid, aghast
Come to me in this dark night of my soul and let your light shine
Give me the strength to go on in the power of your name
Let me follow your direction even when it seems bizarre
Let me find joy, peace and faith within me
Lord I come again because I am loosing touch
I am loosing the grip I had before or the grip I thought I had
Lord I may have said it so many times, but I say it again take me back
Take me to where my joy will return, to where I will see your face again
If it be your will Lord I will stay, for to do your will is my ultimate aim
But if not Lord, take me where yo know I will feel the light of your countenance
Where I will touch your flock, feed your sheep and still be happy
Nevertheless I say again, Let your perfect will be done.
Lord I come again, I come to seek your face
Lord, I COME AGAIN, in the name of your Son, Jesus Christ
AMEN